At The Top

I rattle the cages, yeah I can leap off the edges.
Do not try to stop me, let me ascend to the Heavens.
But if you want to stop by and watch me cry,
I can make you a deal that money cannot buy.

Such that I forget you can't trust me.
I'm a sidewinder missile screaming across the sea.
And when I ascend tonight, you can find me in my home.
Like a king without a crown, but happy one my throne.

But royalty isn't exactly what I've been looking for.
Rather just another night of passing out on the floor.
I open my eyes, I get up, and I run many a mile.
Failing, faltering, and dying is just not my style.

Tis a strange time these days to be a bronze god.
Indeed the lot of us find ourselves to be quite odd.
But if you run with me and you do not stop.
Then you can join up with me when I reach the top.

And at the party I honestly never ask for much.
Yet I look upon your face and cannot resist your touch.
My body quivers such that I decant my divinity.
For our bodies collide and I'm taken to infinity.

Is this what it feels like to be just human?
Amalgamated powerless dethroned depleted fusion?
It makes me sick and it makes me sad.
To consider all the forcefed poison I had.

And on broken wings I hit the ground,
Won't be that much longer now.
I lay by the shore facing the sky,
In too much pain to wince or cry.

This is what it's like to be a bronze god
You realize your just some kind of human fraud.
And all the people you learn to love,
Would rather cast their stones from high above.

Jagged rocks ripping flesh as they rain from the skies.
From people I love with sickening grins and fiery eyes.
I wipe the blood from my lip and see your face among them.
Evade what I can but doing little to postpone the end.

And thus I wake up in an unfamiliar place.
Some rapturous area between sky and space.
There is nothing here but the echo of my breath.
I can't help but feel as if this is my own death.

So I kept running, more of the same.
But no matter how much farther I ran, nobody came.
I have a mind to halt, but I just can't stop.
For maybe I am neither human nor god here at the top.