Kept Awake

Now here's a feeling I haven't felt in a good long while.

Do I make my stop here or do I go the extra mile?

I want to pledge my heart and soul to a friendly cause.

Yet I need time to iron out some outstanding flaws.

I remain silent even though I have everything to say.

For they are the thoughts I banished from the light of day.

Yet there too are the times where I feel like I'm on fire.

But to whom do I turn when I am hanging from the wire?

I feel people took up residence at the bottom of my heart.

But maybe they were always there from the very start.

Perhaps they were in places I cannot see.

I spent my whole life blind to the best of me.

And you know, there were so many people before that have tried.

But I have an inkling on who I can turn to with my arms open wide.

Once in a while I may be gracious and give a little more.

Lest I forget, however, that I have been dead wrong before.

Abyss Bore No Fury

In a vacuum where vibrations are all I sense.
I suffer under yet another false pretense.
But when all was said and done.
It was just another mistake to learn from.

Prone to lash out in a righteous fit.
I may give much but not a single shit.
And oh have I long awaited this day.
To silence demons and unmake decay.

But I've culled the demons for far too long.
Now is the time I retreat and sing a new song.
It will be an unbroken song of redemption.
But I will keep an open ear to your suggestion.

I'll make a supply of justice but no demand
To the angels marching hand-in-hand
It's a different song and a familiar tune.
But I am renewed and I'm rising soon.